I just celebrated my birthday on Saturday. Friday night I was sitting in a concert with friends listening to their sons and others play music and got to thinking about the year that had passed from June 2010 to June 2011 and I realized what a great year it had been.
The backdrop was the year before that - one of the hardest years of my life, following on some other hard ones. Dry, duty-bound times full of “Martha work” and not “Mary joy”. Dragging in at 7:30 or 8 p.m. each night thinking not uncommonly how I hated my job. Yes, there were bright spots – mountain biking, moments of celebration in our work, visits from friends, Single’s Bible studies.
But if I wasn’t burned out by the spring of 2010, I was certainly on a downward trajectory. When my regional director suggested a sabbatical for my upcoming home-assignment, it was like a window had been opened, with light shining in but for some time in a few months. I envisioned a “rebooting” of my spiritual life. (Hey, if they can reboot “Star Trek” and “Batman”, why not? Seems like a great modern metaphor).
In spring 2010, I started planning a sabbatical: books to read, verses to learn, disciplines to follow ONCE I got away from it all in June 2010. However, God’s plan was different – and better. Two different colleagues were prevented from returning to Mali in June last year and so I had to delay my furlough. When news of this came, I was disappointed, but like Homer Simpson, was slapped around by the Epipha-tree: Why do I have to wait to do those things? Why can’t I start doing them here in now in Mali. I did and God honored that.
In June 2010, I decided to go ahead and take the trip to N. Ireland that was to have begun my furlough. There the window began cracking open wider. The guy at the retreat center encouraged me to just ride the bike out along the cliffs and sea and NOT take books with me to read. Just see what God might have to say. Very freeing for a protestant work-ethic bound person who felt the need to have something constructive planned all the time. I was also challenged to be serious about Sabbath rest and that flowered into a time of delight and rest that began wonderful transformation in the fall of 2010. Ask my friends and colleagues.
Perhaps I could have learned that lesson in the US on a proper sabbatical time, but it made a lot more sense couched in the weekly cycle of work (6 days) and sanctification of Sabbath time (7th day). It’s hard to “give up work” when you are on a time of sabbatical when you have no structured work duties. Not unlike starting a diet when you are already doing Lent.
Flash forward to February 2011 – home to the US. Sabbatical time begins formally in March. Lots of making space for God to speak in whatever way he might choose: reading in coffee houses, listening to music, visiting museums, walking through parks and cemeteries, meeting new friends, living in community, writing and blogging, cycling, cycling, cycling, Cycling across Oklahoma – call it a quest or pilgrimage but it was icing on the cake.
There was a stripping away of many of the extra things that we so often use to anchor us: familiar places and people, TV, work, regular internet connection, constant surroundings. And guess what? When you clear those things away, it’s easier to hear God speak.
It’s been a time of God lavishing his love on me as His adopted son. It took me a while realize that this thing I couldn’t put a name on was what they call “Grace.” As I was writing this, as has happened so often, a song came on my computer that seemed hand-picked:
This is what it’s like to be loved. This is what it’s like to be forgiven. This is what it feels like to be alive. To be living in a way that you don’t have to fear being zapped by God ‘cause you don’t measure up. After all. . . . that’s the point.
Charlie Peacock, That’s the Point, 1996
There was also healing (see blog post “unexpected tears”) and tears and grieving for those hard things of the past years. Someone said the tears are like vomiting – not pleasant when it happens, but you sure do feel better afterwards. And I can say that as I go back and review those things now, the scars are there but the soreness is drained out.
So as I was thinking of this past year, June 2010 in Ireland to June 2011, I can say it is probably the best year of my life. A great time of God following after me, pursuing me, bring me back home, rebooting me. Life 2.0 – that may be a bit extreme, but that is how it feels.
I went to sleep with this on my mind and woke up on my birthday. The Common Prayer for Ordinary Radicals Liturgy for that day had a reading from Ezekiel 34:16 that was a great birthday present:
I (the Good Shepherd) will search for my lost ones who strayed away, and I will bring them safely home again. I will bandage the injured and strengthen the weak.

























